It really only takes a moment, a song, a reminder of some sort.
After the kids are in bed I just think about where you are sleeping, laying your head at night. I know you have no control over this, but having your address would make me feel so much better.
I can’t even write this without crying because I just feel so lost without you.
It’s so hard to be a married/single parent, but I do it.
A friend told me today, “you just amaze me Amy. The way you keep it all together.” It’s nice to know that some actually wonder how I do it, but on the other hand, you are the only one I’d do it for, and that’s the truth. I look at the kids and I think about how much they resemble you, when they look or turn a certain way. I know we are doing this for the right reasons, in the long run, but in the short run..we just plain miss you..
Ricky got his annual summer mohawk. Nate was convinced he would too, but when push came to shove, he couldn’t stand the sound of the clippers. He bailed out of that chair so fast.
A funny story from today. We went to go see Kung-Fu Panda. What a fabulous movie.
There was one scene where master tigress (I think that’s her name) went to battle the villian. They were battling on a rope bridge, suspended above the entire universe of course… Well, the ropes were cut and the battle continued on the falling ropes. Ricky says out loud, “I know what that’s called…It’s Hang-Fu!” Well, I just about died. That kid cracks me up. I laughed for a good 10 minutes. Mainly because, I thought about how you would have been laughing. These are the moments I miss.
Not to mention the computer problems I’ve been having. Ugh. I wish I could blame them on you, but I can’t 
I try my best to be a good, stable, well-adjusted mother in times of stress, overwhelming feelings of missing you, and of course, those times of sibling rivalry. I even hesitate, waiting for my partner, my friend, to jump in and say, “you better listen to what your mother is telling you.” It doesn’t come and it makes me miss you so much more than I did the minute before.
Ricky knows which buttons to push and Nate follows. Just trying to hang on and stay positive, through it all.
The guy came to cut the grass. Had to remind him, but he did come.
I had to take out the trash Thursday night and it sucked.
I loaded the dishwasher today and did some laundry.
I miss seeing your clothes in the laundry room.
I love you babe.
We really really miss you…
